Yes! I am angry.

I am irritated...I am hurt.

When I tried to go to that happy place...I feel like running away and hitting someone in the head.

The worst problem is "I don't have a freaking clue why I feel the way I feel"

Right now in this very instant, I hate people. I hate that they don't care. I also hate that they care. Of course I know that I am not going to do anything about it. Most probably I will remain distant and aloof, as I always do when I get into this mood. Hardly 2 or 3 people will even realize that I am in a bad mood and that too if I want to. I don't expect them to pamper me. But I cannot stand when they turn their face away either. I don't even know what I expect any more.

Oh Himalayas, where have you gone?

In my hour of need, you seem so distant.

Those glorious days when I escaped counting just one

into a world far away from this bewilderment.

A day or two and I know things will be back normal. But do I even want it to be normal. The same old scene will repeat once more weighed by the tiny different problems which would finally have gone too far to handle. Is it so bad to hope for a permanent solution? Is it so tough to actually find one? Right now I want to be free. Free to be angry. Free to take some time off and not care about anything else in the world. Free to figure it out and put an end to 'it'.

and suddenly it hits me that I have not made a single post in the entire year of 2012. My plan for redemption is to allow my dear blog two questions. Why only two? Well I cant think of a 3rd question that is why...

So what happened in 2012?  

Oh yeah! The big life changing decision; I quit my job and decided to do an MBA. After going back to studies, I realized that it was never that much fun in the first place. 

Got into my first major bike accident and that too on a 250 km biking trip. Not sure if it counts since I was not driving...hmmm!! The biggest takeaway from the accident is that my camera bag is super awesome. A 70 kmph fall and my DSLR is still intact. Not even a scratch.

The year yet again proved that I am sucker for relationships. Every wall that I had put between myself and others was shattered by some amazing people. Two years before, Infosys proved that life is more than just networking. I thought MBA will finally put an end to all this 'Friends' nonsense and drive some cold hearted, realistic, no nonsense networking skills into my arsenal. Alas! I don't know half the people in my college(so much for networking) and I made FRIENDS in a b-school (imagine the horror).

So what about 2013?

Well what about it! I have no freaking clue what is going happen this year. But I do know that I am amazingly happy these days (God knows why...) and perhaps it will be another awesome year like Mr. 12.